i am learning to love

see in your imperfect , heartbreaking world , the fundamental wholeness , from the place of pure being .
Stand in the place of lovers Ecstasy
and cry out in gratitude "no more, no more , no more '

from the place beyond life and death
Love



....no its not trite , escape your Romanticism , escape your chemical hallucinations , escape your love affair with intellect . it all exists because of love
 a love that allows
 a love that is curious
 a love that creates
 a love that is
 you
 a love that is me
 a love that is a green flowered tree branch
 a love that is dirt and soil
 blood red
 and joy coloured
 painful Ecstasy of free will
 and remembrance of rose  moist womb
and star colored wallpaper

so long as I let the spirit reign , so long as i am not vain
so long as love rains  so long as i stay in stark raving sanity
I am happy
and i am free 

love is not in what we seek , it is who we are
strength is not what we make it is what we discover
 like most things it is within
 sought outwards
 but revealed inwards
Your Gods grant your wishes only because they were with you always
 the devil disputes only in the space of doubt
 and simply to reveal

the greatest lovestory is life itself ;allowing , giving, satisfying and entertaining your illusions
the greatest lover is your soul
and it will never end

blessed!

thoughts

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIDjwGChFo4
Full circle

we leave what we know in search of what we are
and eventually when we close the loop we find we have come back home
seeking the the place of wonder and innocence
trying to recapture the rapture that is new born life
 we wander and seek wonder
then we come back home

this is god
this is love
this is dharma
this is Ecstasy
this is life lived

when you are done trying and doing and willing and all the little games that ego plays
when you think you are done and there is no death
when you truly see the meaninglessness and in true laughter find that  first cause
 and its been looking at you all this time
the shadow that skips and prances when you  are not looking
the reflection in the mirror that gives you a sly wink
the song that says exactly what you are thinking when you are thinking it
the prayer that seems to answer your own

yes you are home
its ok to rebel
its ok to seek out your path
everything is made new when you wish it
every road is virgin
and all the stars are the chronicle of you

then you come back home
done wondering and  for wander this vast place
this place of many mansions
is home

perception is eloquence
perception is understanding
perception is individual
perception is all
perception is deception
love gifts all

                    and when you are done you come home

food for food!

'You Goddamn Ziggurat !' I cursed the guy.

"Why did u say that ?"

Well, I like playing with words almost as much as I like effin with people

It pleased me to imagine the person upset by a string of nonsense,
insulted by nothing...hehe!

Sometimes I hit the jackpot, and the  guy is an 'over thinker', probably thinking "What a Retard , doesn't even know what a ziggurat means  ...the idiot."

And if  I am  really lucky the guy is an 'over -over thinker' and having done with telling himself I am an idiot,  has to spend a few more minutes thinking why the hell is he still upset over a "non-insult" levied by an idiot ! Ha !

Then if they are on 'over-over-over thinker' they have to wonder what language really means when a nonsensical statement can still convey insult and evoke hurt feelings and anger...in a sense have power over them.

Then if my diabolical plan really Hits the jackpot ,dude starts to wonder how much of what he considers his bonafide self is subject to adjustment and control by things/aspects  and inputs that are beneath perception ,conception or comprehension. And how much of what is considered genuine interaction is basically a crap fest of unseen inflection and subversion of a body of sense and energy that dude barely surfs yet confidently calls "ME"

Thats  an ugabuga of a buga bugah huh!

It is All Here For & Because Of You!!

          Everything!!

It(everything) is all here For and because Of You!! Be aware be thankfulbe kind

One time only Deal . lifetimes warranty

an intense and loving moment
a truthfull and wordless epiphany
a laughter that swells from deep inside
an 'Ahh' moment
that perfect insanity that you are, made clear and dazzling in one delirious moment of ecstasy
an understanding
A breach thru your walls into the eternal One . The solid Total Oneness revealed. the Real revealed in it wonderful technicolor splendor. That intense Love. that quiet nook,that gentle touch.the sweetest song  The Double rainbow!!


brought to you by all you have ever been, seen and done
every mountain climbed.and all the tears shed
every backstabbin Mofo
and everyone who treated you well
and the smell of all the good feelings and good things and good beings coloured in almighty good vibes.that made sure that you turned out just the way that you do To be that unique soul that can contain all this just..like.. this..

All have conspired to create this unique moment for your total enjoyment in a one time only deal
subject to soulfull and unconditional approval of yourself .Right now!
Yes Right Now!!

Giving Credit to all selves accepted
Call now and now and now . This is an unlimited time offer.  Your process is standing by(closer than you think)
Brought to you by the Everlovin Chorus and the Self Eulogizing Wonder Peeps
Caution: you may find no more reason to be unhappy

feel ing scattered
feeli ng br ok  en
                                up

      ken
sha               dice
clac
         king                      in my ear
rolled on table ready to play

you look for some stuff
try to avoid the patterns
in hope  that you 'd find something new
something thats truly you

but then its all been seen before
your pride must be discarded
and all this shit is just your burden
     just been discarded
                   by you
                 the  you that had been before
                  the one that felt this war within
                          the one that just scared you into being

this is what your soul sung when you were young
And this is all you cared for when all was born

so now walk away now
your cares and
share the fear now
tell them how to care and not go wrong

this is what you soul sung when you were young

And this is all you cared for when all was young

so long as we pretend
that this is the way that
and all we can
is
all we can till the end
cos this song
   must end
   just end
end all war
all fear
end all war
within
end all searching within
someone turn off this soundtrack

really turn it off
off
off
off for me

there is this glorious pot of weed 

that we just had 

this crazy piece of conversation that we just shared 

this greatest triumph of imagination

that we wish we could mention 

if you could only get it 

you would love it 

its deep 

its tight 

its funny as fuck

you  really need to hear it

and you  will

just once we stop laughing

when i can give thanks I will
when i want to
i do
when the wind blows , i fly
and when my sun shines I grow
that i have found this is Tao
that I  am in here is Flow


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so to best express my interests
I begat humility
to best express my supremacy
I pretend I do not need
and to most enjoy this reality
I Kid




I swear there is nothing to be seen here
there is nothing but , Behold
just leave me alone here
I want you to be bold, come into my fold


its amazing here
its pure gold

new day

Thank you very much for this day
For the spirit  had something to say
And in soul wills my  act stage and play

then with great smugness take a bow !

                                                     and when its dawn, head for the door

                                                                   right behing the blinding lights where ends the stage floor  

                                                               I will take off my wig bask in the glow  take a swig of spirit and prepare for  the new show

praise

Synchronicity and alignment

are nothing but answered prayers

and the agents of this gift

are angels

the angels that have fallen for you

love and pray always

it is your own  way of communicating

your path to the void

it is the artists brush to your soul
the role that makes bold

coz mostly when we beleive

we are trusting that which we are

and that which we most desire will provide

and these teardrops are raindrops

spring shower on parched ground

the seed that will grow is me

My laughter is thunder

and my footsteps are wind

and my sight  is the light  provoked by this

and by my soul I behold everything!