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Saturday, March 12, 2011

It is an interesting thought 
that everything is vividly and vibrantly Life
Even these words.
Everything is within and part of life
  thoughts and things 
forms and function
ideas and ideals
abstractions and distractions 
it is all the inhale and exhale of what we limitedly call life 
all that is, is ALIVE!

i am running low



hear me lord 
i am running low 
i'm running low


feels like i've been this way before
and i am running low 


where everything is alive 
and its all relentlessly real
demanding that i stay and feel
sort out how and what it means 
when everything is not as it seems 
must i play along not picking at the seams?
should i keep having these dreams 
should i keep wondering what they mean 


am i allowed to wake up?
and.. i mean .. why am i so scared  
to know what this means 
why am i afraid 
to leave all these false dreams
why do i feel like 
its all this that Means
and its me thats nothing  it seems 


I'm running low 
i'm running low
hear me lord 
i'm running low 


My breath catches 
and my heart is tight within my chest 
my terror born limbs do not believe its just a test
and the scream that is my being will never let me rest 
yet deep down inside i know theres not much left 
and very ,nearly , soon ... its all for the best


hear me lord 
i am running low am running low


in its finality its becoming clear 
now that all is almost lost everything has become most dear
its all become one long and stumbling prayer 
bubbling forth- from and through my fear
as i rip through each tattered layer 


hear me road
i.m coming home 
i.m coming home 

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

I am this moment

you focus on what you don't have and hence create this in continuous cycles . you focus on what you don't have and hence recreate this state in continuous cycles. you focus on what you don't have and hence recreate this state in continuous cycles. you focus on what you don't  have and hence recreate this state in continuous cycles.


you focus on what you lack and manifest the state of lack 
you emotionally paint the picture of your worry and despair into the reality you live 
the arena of your focus manifests 
your emotional response and mental focus manifest
 reality is the tapestry of your focus 

intention is what you spend time dwelling on 
what is created is what you keep mulling or imagining or worrying or thinking of
If  you think about lack you create lack 
if you think of needing you create a scene that reflects need 
if you think fearfully 
fearful conditions are manifested 

think happily and blissful circumstance is created 
think on blessings and blessings are created 
think on satisfactions and satisfactions multiply 

You dwell in what you dwell on
Every moment represents you .
change you to change the moment and its representative manifestation 

we walk in the grottoes and dungeons of subconscious dreams, fears and despair.
we walk the corridors of our beliefs and paint in the colors of our passions and emotions
The prison is built by need , belief , worry  and separation 

The world around is troublesome and its fear and death matrix are beamed relentlessly 
we suckle on Mother Carnages' teat even in our sleep 
we accept the bad as inevitable and as bedrock fabric
as a given 
as immutable fact 
and we perish for lack of knowledge 
we believe it normal to suffer & perceive joy as a rare and random event 
a chancy and undependable thing 
we are trained to believe in death and to seek annihilation 
Of all but our own false selves 

i pray for forgiveness for the unwitting part I have played in the crucifixion of the Christ 
i pray for forgiveness for the blood and from the blood
for the tears i have shed 
and the blasphemies i have become 
and pray most fervently that what is most dark
made sick  and twisted  in my soul
will accept this forgiveness as it comes 
and release my caged light

I pray to atone for this with a resurrection 
an ascension 
and a penance of unceasing blessing and joy and laughter 
a devotion of great humour 
and endless  good cheer
a fast in which I will deny myself sorrow 
and decline to hold my head low 
I will feast on the days of grieving
and celebrate my passing  from these realms
for when the veil of travail is lifted 
I will have danced my way back home 

Friday, March 4, 2011

fall out of mind infatuation
fall out of ego manipulation
come back to the simple pure and powerful self that precedes all this 

this addiction with symbols of mind ,this worship of wit 
the luciferian glow/
Stop with the lies and cease the endless negotiation 
quit bargaining with a false self  for a few spells

stop speaking and stop understanding
stop learning and stop trying
strip down to what you were before you accepted a name 
and a  got cast a part in this game

quit treasuring your pain or casting blame
quit keeping score  and fighting bigger foes
there is nothing to gain there is no great cause
 Just stop trying and just be

remember who/what that you are, its all that that you have searched for so far/


soul

Soul
the balance
the being
energy vortex  radiant
the wavelength
the frequency
the type of expression of the one
the ray
the day
the mirror to the sun
Ra
 Aton
atone for the distortion
the rich emotion
the colors
that split
from the one
flee to see
step aside and into the flow
the road
the river
the sea
the sun
bumble bee
the mind is unkind
love merciless in its compassion
the truth a slave of fashion
in the end there are only beginnings
in the end you must stand on your own none existent feet
describe the tears you'd wish to weep
and paint grand skies
your heavenly dreams to keep
lose yourself in the far horizons
of your poetry
written in spacetime
and spoken in the slippery whisper of Soul