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so...hmm.. i am really, really giddy. From where i stand everything is shaken and hangs loose . its like a
a convergence of belief and realities. and umm ..
and the only one i can tell is You

 so thank you for being there, i guess .
uhm
i wish i was more articulate  ..more ..elaborate.  I... wish I could express to you exactly what i feel. how exactly i view things . how my blood pumps so to speak :).i am made aware of how unique each creation is . How even the semblance of homogeneity is a staggering and majestic miracle .
That in All that Is . IN all infinities ,THERE IS A CHORD IN  HARMONY . The linguistics will recognize an accord in my words, the kabbalists will find GOD ,the mystics will know what is coming next  and the true souls will create it. and i guess the crazy people will say welcome home !!
 but i digress

i am wary of  any attempt to do that though

i am aware that once you see the light you can never unsee it. once you know it was always you and this explosion is nuclear enveloping the illusion of past and present Both. Each and every now is a rewrite of EVERYTHING. just to allow you to experience this particular NOW .
and humanity as a persistent drug
loved beyond all others
it is a culmination of events that redefines all others
it is the clearest echo
the only
THE only
only remaining echo of the oritronic orgasm
of that loudest and most singular sound. That cause and  first event and occasion. The Ecstasy

I AM

once you know anything you are "changed"

all knowledge is a seduction

and Sophia is the loveliest of whores

she will give anyone of herself

and once you have had a taste of her You are never the same

I want you to be you.( i know this sounds silly but i do . i don't care about your dreams and aspirations . i only care about this moment . for here is the seed that grows . here is the place where infinities are spawned ,dreams are born and all children call home. here is where everything you are IS . in kernel form . concentrated . and if i can embrace you now . Completely . without reservations or limitations. without any separation  i hold all of you. and you are an infinity of wonder .and where does my care stand . what place does it have in this wonderful and amazing presence it is like claiming to care about a galaxy OR a mountain when all you really do is stand in awe and appreciate that you were lucky and blessed enough to be present... Of course there are other angles . other perceptions present . both micro and macro. each and every one transcendent
 but this is only text. stop fucking with my bandwidth and give your ego a time out )

AND I WANT TO BE the one who accepts you !
unconditionally.
totally
so that  when we share stories
we will be able to laugh and shed authentic tears
because  we Know!
 exactly how it feels to be us
exactly what it takes to see in certain ways
and how excellent and perfect is that   being .


and when all is said  and done
we go back to the first cause
all father, mother, godess
the love that birthed us all and gave us name
Names before all names
And WORD before all words
sight before we could see
the love that is all and anything

our womb

transorm  tree,  exponentially built

Ygdrssl

branches everywhere

fractaly reaching and creating infinities

numbers and algorithms. in one orgasmic gasp.
and there was FIREWORKS!..ok ok Light!

ok?
(freakin  prudes )



 like all of us
needing to be human
the definitions
give a sense of belonging
the ape sounds that spring from our lips
the eloquence of our ignorance
stamped and sealed
The stories we tell ourselves
because we are these creations
of "sense"
 chemical reactionaries
i am not slamming or taking "us " for granted

i just feel that "us " has had its day
and this is the apocalypse we have been 'wake' dreaming of.
We are about to meet the alien . that we need /must become
we have to find our gods.
all the souls that have ever been born are here right now .
our billions and billions are the raising of the dead

transition requires us to be present for our own annihilation
all must be made new
for we have exhausted this way of being
In infinities of dimensions we have been THIS
and now we will be ELSE

it is going to be the scariest and most exhilarating thing ever
          And we will be new creatures!!

of course this is bullshit
how else can i spout this

...Lol
your comprehension is not required
"presence is catalyst"
my propaganda has done its job

and if you are "here"
your choice was already made
the light takes no prisoners
what you know IS  YOU now
oops sorry
oops welcome
oops what was your name ?
..
Thats my name too
and we all share this frame
name
game
identity
body
universe
ID
Love
thought
light


but this is just a story too!
what elevates us is our reconnection into larger and larger wholes
what we are is a soul jamming musical chord that always reaches for the crazier note and new half of a half beat
that we haven't tasted touched or sang before

let there be 

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!