today was an extra ordinary day. the sun was blazing,skies clear. heat should have been stifling but it was not . instead there was that clear ocean cut vintage taste to the wind , crisp and clear, But baking hot ..

from the moment i rolled out of bead , and did my chicken dance to the suns slow unveiling over the hills, perfection

from the moment my alarm went off just before i figured out what twilight should taste like ,, perfect

and a missed call from a friend
 a text from an ancient
 a mind blowing feel good post from one of my mothers
 a joke shared on the road
 and excellent DJ selection on my favourite channel
a step in the right direction with my hidden crush
 a brutal criticism that almost felt like fighting words.. then my brilliant comeback

I own this shit
 I am this shit
 I am
 still laughing,  still feeling ,still listening, still tearing down all defenses . aka walls
, Yes it hurts , but mostly its AMAZING
you learn that weakness is your ability to show strength.
period . any more is fetishistic
 once you know you are strong ,the proof is irrelevant.
once u know you are blessed
 everything is an opportunity to showcase the blessings
once u know you are love
 you light up your environment
in every lived second .

listening to music,

some old school sounds

 then some really old . like, really old school sounds

 and my mind is fired Uuup!

i walk in symphony// wacha hiyo

 i walk in the beat/ ndizo hizo

heart rhythms/ its tha gud thingz

 looking for a word that's like thee rhythms(lol). like deer in light beems

but even with distance there is presence/ , I'm disturbed inside need effervessence

 this lone writ is childish/ but me want ascendance
but back space backspace
 reflect
re rite
 release
SAY.
 be a an obiquitous reflection of ID
 be an infection of  IS
 in verse

feel everything . and do not hide ,
even when it hurts it is still You you must see, and that you run makes it so much worse , because in this world you hide so much hurt
 and make blossom
a

still dodging certainty
mastery
 reason and purpose
 these are my slaves
not my master
 but to be obstinately resistant
 is to be a fool
and to be worshipfully  in awe is to be enslaved
 same difference
  this paragraph
..was my warning sign
take it as u will

here i am.. welcome to the crucifixion

i am becoming. and am

aware 

of my vulnerabilities

there  are the cracks  in the cavern 

 the soft breaks that make art 

i will always embellish what i wish to emphasize

as an exercise to see

. but now and then, something comes by and shatters that false self. that protective ID  and i see with new eyes

i know that love allows . but also sharing that sentence makes me shudder

 like a line has been crossed

i know i love u 

 but the same snakeskin touch recoil endures like i am claiming too much

i believe i am being honest 

 but i also realise i speak from a particular light tube of understanding(picture ur  known truths as a light bulb and picture that particular light shining in an ever expanding cone/ zenith/horizon of influence,, this is you, unless u get a radical new "OMG" moment,

  call it epiphany , call it love at first sight, call it rigorous science,call it a moment of awe

we do this 

we are called Human

we call ourselves children of God

wanderers

lost souls

the second coming

outsiders

But most of all whether through despair 

or Joy 

or bliss

we discovered

 THERE HAS TO BE MORE

no proof except the subjective encounter with the immensity of our lives.

then we look around and there is an arid cold expanse
then we look again
choosing our conviction
and the desert blooms
friends speak of things unsaid
 by token pacts to your joined paths
synchronous harmony
becomes the norm

and still you doubt
i doubt
 it seems too cliche
(who taught you hexagon_ chris rock")
but there is Science; Hard Science
And there is also you. Only ,You.

If this subjective experience of things . Like all subjective experience of things . makes your world richer and more fluid and more..MORE
then live it!

but if it closes you out . reduces your choices
. makes you less tolerant
less of everything that is the THE current possibility of human experience. i.e bigoted , close minded, petty, ....u see where this horse is going.?// then ur path sucks.Change now.

I love u All
 it is within you to find the love and curious intelligence within all existence
and celebrate it
every day

live unjudged , and full of forgiveness!!

I hesitate to add this last part . but though trite it is true,

BE THE LIGHT

i met this angel
 she wakes my demons
 and heals them
she finds my god
and makes me fall in love with the goddess

we do not speak too much
 we strip to our most vulnerable self
 and find the truth in flesh
and exotic sensation
 and share loaded half smiles
then we hug
 and walk away and make the world a better place

if u have fear
u r still here
welcome to the end of the world
 know thyself
change this shit
 become everything
angel and demon will share your holy communion
change the world
 make it something else
yes
this is your power

weirdly enough no one has noticed ,
they have made it through to a whole nwe paradigm
a whole new level of experience

existence

anyone u know right now is a peer on a whole new level
unlimited
dangerous
kind
evil
good
undefined
unhinged to any moral code except compassion and love
and at the worst
fear

So I figured it out,
I guess you did too
That this life is for living
And we are too.

Each motion is born of emotion
And each thing is OUR  thing
All that  we love and care about happens daily
 All that we are truly

Once you know
 yourself
you are free