here i am.. welcome to the crucifixion

i am becoming. and am

aware 

of my vulnerabilities

there  are the cracks  in the cavern 

 the soft breaks that make art 

i will always embellish what i wish to emphasize

as an exercise to see

. but now and then, something comes by and shatters that false self. that protective ID  and i see with new eyes

i know that love allows . but also sharing that sentence makes me shudder

 like a line has been crossed

i know i love u 

 but the same snakeskin touch recoil endures like i am claiming too much

i believe i am being honest 

 but i also realise i speak from a particular light tube of understanding(picture ur  known truths as a light bulb and picture that particular light shining in an ever expanding cone/ zenith/horizon of influence,, this is you, unless u get a radical new "OMG" moment,

  call it epiphany , call it love at first sight, call it rigorous science,call it a moment of awe

we do this 

we are called Human

we call ourselves children of God

wanderers

lost souls

the second coming

outsiders

But most of all whether through despair 

or Joy 

or bliss

we discovered

 THERE HAS TO BE MORE

no proof except the subjective encounter with the immensity of our lives.

then we look around and there is an arid cold expanse
then we look again
choosing our conviction
and the desert blooms
friends speak of things unsaid
 by token pacts to your joined paths
synchronous harmony
becomes the norm

and still you doubt
i doubt
 it seems too cliche
(who taught you hexagon_ chris rock")
but there is Science; Hard Science
And there is also you. Only ,You.

If this subjective experience of things . Like all subjective experience of things . makes your world richer and more fluid and more..MORE
then live it!

but if it closes you out . reduces your choices
. makes you less tolerant
less of everything that is the THE current possibility of human experience. i.e bigoted , close minded, petty, ....u see where this horse is going.?// then ur path sucks.Change now.

I love u All
 it is within you to find the love and curious intelligence within all existence
and celebrate it
every day

live unjudged , and full of forgiveness!!

I hesitate to add this last part . but though trite it is true,

BE THE LIGHT