Chinaka Hodge

full bloom child
a miracle to the wise
a big deal, The  heart beat life going Boom
in full bloom
an explosion of sense and glee
an expansion of the concept of being me
full bloom in season sensational
full bloom outstanding on a mountain peak
light piercing the dark
bringing dawn in all sense and glory

so.
paradoxically
to see the Light requires an attempt to stand in a dark place.
face palm..stupid move,

its all shadows till you see the light as Yourself and stop reading the steno off the cave walls.

thought for thoughts sake is an obscene monster, until you allow your "awareness" to click back on.
be a thoughtless observer for a while , a happy idiot if you will , allow the niverse to transpire as it should , and with childish delight see the wonder unfold ,,in everything! even a dust mote

then go check on your ego
 soothe it as you will and reassure it the nothing went wrong in its "timeout/Absence"

accept the "smallness" that is your eye as it wades that Vast boundless of the IS . it does not lessen you,
think of the majestic audacity that is your soul,
that it dares venture into infinite deeps
with a crazed grin ,joyful bestial visage,wild and mad for adventure,

we lay unchallenged claim to the infinite
 and rejoice in the yet unconquered ignorance in our path
burning  illumination with each forward step.birthing ourselves anew from each fallen and found truth
each sunrise is our new found wisdom born in the grave darkness of dreams and stupor.
each sun is our new soul chosen anew, lighting up the sky to new passions endeavours and dreams

there is no pith or path to these writings today
just chords to long forgotten songs that our wondering souls need reminding
the real Song of Life
the reason that we Majestics roam the unseen

each word is whimsy that will trigger a chord
an accord
between yours and mine
you as mind
answer the call of longing within
and with great purpose and voice
WAKE UP

I used to be limitless in thought and act
then for some reason I got scared and fought back
Hard
I gave as good as I got
Ii became heartless enough and fear full enough
 I equalled and excelled at balancing the monsters out

Then backed away

I thought I had won

 turns out all I have done is build a dam
 a flaming wall to keep "life" at bay

it was a genius move!
...
for the short term

Now I see myself at a distance.
 a hollowed out husk

that battled itself almost to the death


So I WILL reconnect with the stars and the seas
I WILL reconnect with my sadness and joys and fears
I WILL reconnect with my loved ones and my Dreams
my lost soul

I will remind myself what the words Father,Mother,Brother, Friend, Mean
I will not treat my grief as disease
but embrace it as the embers of what burns most fiercely once accepted and held close;
Love
The burning light of THEE
the whole being
that is ME

this cute girl is mad at me
this cute world is mad at me
                these winds tell me
these starry skies tell me

 that this capricious world is mad at me

but its all about what i did
 what i said
 what i believe
i think
i become

this mischief is Me

at play

New Things

towards the end of the last year
things got kinda hectic
it felt like things were getting to a head

Manic barely gets to describe it
but towards the end I went through a pain like i never have
Physically and mentally I felt spent
Food would not stay in
I was like the book of lamentations wrapped and made real
food and wine,
 friends and Lovers
my favourite books
sunsets and sunrises
always like dust and ash

It was an ending

So New things

My joy has returned
I cannot even articulate or fathom the reasons of my despair

It is so distant

New things

I know Thanatos wings brushed me
all of me
 death came by and claimed its own
took them to New...

So
     New things


Im a child a gain
Laughing again
seeing again
be. Living again
without  belief though
Ain't falling for that again
          like I said
New Things


Its euphoria
my own un given Samsara
New Things!
new Gods
new Paths
new grace
new loves
same friends
Doing New things

its not an attempt at profundity
just Play