New Things

towards the end of the last year
things got kinda hectic
it felt like things were getting to a head

Manic barely gets to describe it
but towards the end I went through a pain like i never have
Physically and mentally I felt spent
Food would not stay in
I was like the book of lamentations wrapped and made real
food and wine,
 friends and Lovers
my favourite books
sunsets and sunrises
always like dust and ash

It was an ending

So New things

My joy has returned
I cannot even articulate or fathom the reasons of my despair

It is so distant

New things

I know Thanatos wings brushed me
all of me
 death came by and claimed its own
took them to New...

So
     New things


Im a child a gain
Laughing again
seeing again
be. Living again
without  belief though
Ain't falling for that again
          like I said
New Things


Its euphoria
my own un given Samsara
New Things!
new Gods
new Paths
new grace
new loves
same friends
Doing New things

its not an attempt at profundity
just Play