so what was this day like
 once it hit daylight
sun shone like love  blown
and creative activity like volcanic activity
like one of the chosen i felt rapture


talked to my sister Dorcas, she is such a cute dork as shes grown up  tho
laughing wild pixie who speaks wisdom with a smile and  wink

through her i saw  friends and family

Rosette in her regal splendour
and Rachel
 with her joyful mischievous heart,

then a buddy called fast
was in a concert with my favourite band
and like i knew they would . they rocked !

then.. i know its overwhelming
A souljah walks in and the the music....
 lord the music. the inexplicable connection with the Divine
wielded like an existential blade . with panache .

ran through the new and the old
but in this moment they were reborn . fresh an alive . chini ya maji jo!
 felt guilt at not connecting with my best friend
feels selfish some times to be who I am

But I am this person
and i give a damn
... sooo what else,,

read , a really good book
holla at a really good chick

and yup thats it

my experiment at being subjective , present and here.

i i never realised how much distance i put between me and my recording of me ..ness.  more mental masturbation will follow
. i seem to be my only audience so i use vulgarity with ease.
but i am not vulgar for vulgarities sake.
but the jarring effect of it brings full focus to the point being made  moda focka!!