{ hahaha so this is me after a bottle of scotch. i will not edit or delete this one . its a keeper in all its junky typo glory!}i was going to whine about a sense of fading self.
going to bitch about not being here for my friends or myself
how perfect an ending i could be
because of the silence

silence
all the time
meaninglessness all the time
no one to speak to or confide my truest thoughts
because "i think "therefore I AM"

a thinking tree in an empty forest falls . one hand clap?


so i think these self flogging thoughts
 and repeat  them on an UP beat
living heaven in hell

living lust in love

find wisdom in chaos

i am krishna finding christ
shiva cutting life into little edible peaces for a new gods
a river through death into understanding

a blindfolded walk for a jaded god into NEW
a wakong child into love
 a scared friend into truth
 a chapter of warriors trusting self
a libertine leberated
a girl findind god exists within GODESS
and then..finding an escape hatch beyond conditioning


we exist in potential
 pretend truth and wisdom when both are NOT true
Only u are truth
eternal and majestic
walking thru the universe with verve and purpose
changing  and yet changeless
 the love in existence is YOU/US
the will Is YOU?US
what u see is always you