"There are no limits, just beliefs. So you always got to expand on that....."

letter to my friends

Was thinking about the time loops/ de ja vu thing.The way things seem to be occurring in a way that suggests they have been lived before. That one is in A "predestined " place /experience or occurrence.
I just had a repeat of that feeling when i sent the email out
it hit me when i reached this passage :
".... the only real veil that exists is between the 3rd dimension and the 4th and higher dimensions of reality. This was created as a way of focusing the physical experience that was to be had on the 3rd dimensional reality.
It was a way by which those who entered the 3rd dimension largely forgot their own origins and their own reason for coming into physical existence. This was done so that once a soul aspect entered into physical life they could become completely immersed in the physical life, the physical drama that they were experiencing...."

It immediately connected with me and I felt the distinct feeling that This place and this moment had been lived before .
The place that I am in , the people around me ,everything achieved a state of familiarity .you know what I am talking about . The moment from then until I sent the original e-mail seemed to have been required .

. I hope this does not have you thinking of white jackets and padded cells for me he he
But the sense that I need to communicate what used to occupy my life and that which has in essence become my life is now overpowering . I find it more and more enjoyable to join in  events that  enrich or are  in accord to what I Feel are Truths . I find joy in dwelling on , thinking on and appreciating the implication of these in me and my realities
It puts into context my entire life , My friendships and My Family . And makes me treasure each much more as i seem to find more and greater meaning . and the Love that placed me in these circumstance is revealed .
All my pains and struggles are made plain , and all things are made clear . Yes I still struggle and still stumble but only till I place the present moment in true and proper context then move on .

-There are levels of truth and each perceives these things according to choice and custom . Levels of awareness and comprehension/belief define the nature of your realities .
-"The truth Shall set you free" is not an empty Truism.
-That he came to set captives Free is the truth , And that knowing you are a child of God and accepting the truth of this Within you is the "Way The truth and the light is not a truism .
-That the end is near is also true , but not in a Sadomasochistic Fire and brimstone way . This Is my Truth and hopefully you share it too in whatever language or metaphor you have chosen to wrap it in .

The Bondage that I know of and we all have proof of is That system that is in place to prevent All and any from Being Free Spirits . and Knowing the indestructible nature of the soul.
The system that perverts the very purpose of your being and Blasphemes The holy Spirit by making less of you and causing you to worship "Other" gods and seek succour and happiness without.
For this the great teachers incarnated , Jesus , Krishna, Buddha ,Moses . and all those unnamed ones of Our black Heritage which the dark ages sought to erase and eradicate in Blood Sacrifice and the burning of books of knowledge .

The History of Your soul and The History of the world Are Two distinct and separate things .

Your Soul is of GOD the Father/Mother/First Cause.
And the essence of You is This Holy spirit . You have incarnated as Body As Man and the story of your Soul Is of Creator Creation , Fall/Bondage/ And finally Apocalypse (Greek root :taking off of the mask) the revelation .

The History of the World Is one in which the Drama takes place , Where the rulers of the world seek To mask the truth and enslave mankind and use him as a resource . This is the reason for Colonization, Indenture , Servitude ,Slavery and the Artificial Reward system encoded in an Economy .

This Is the reason for Religion ,Science ,Hierarchical institution, Deceptive Language and other Encryption codes used to limit Self expression and Self Ideation and Self realization . The idea is subjugation ,confusion , and exhaustion in vain endeavor.
A proper phrase I forget where I read it was the "..mask of "Mass ,Meaning and Mystery" "

That Mankind in his Current Incarnation was created (not abracadabra let there be : but actual Biological engineering ) In Africa And that He that rebelled and attempted to free him Is still extant there................... Well that is a long story But its results are the result of human History ( BTW the oldest Civilization is not Caveman but is a fully functional Urban and Industrial base in South Africa about 75000 yrs earlier than that which is allowed for in Text books) Google earth is soo cool!......

I digress
The most Important truth (And this is my truth )
Is That Who I am and Who You Are . Is An eternal , Indestructible Being That exists Now and Evermore .
That All of us Humans share this First Cause And Spirit as Origin of Self .
That Where you Are and who you are is a choice . One among The infinite choices you have and will make .
That All this that you see feel here and now and that you share this with others is an endeavor born of True love and Co-creation. an amalgam of independently envisioned and communally shared .
That Its Corruption and its pain Is The result of a Bondage . An upheaval that has led to an Imprisonment thru loss of Self Identity/Knowledge and memory.
and that Gnosis/Self Knowledge is the Key out .

It is a personal Soul journey. An epic undertaking that began at the beginning of time . that though for a moment It has led to this Dark place That denies us freedom , corrupts Shackles us and makes us live in Dis-ease . The Journey is ending . It is the End time , and The truth Shall set you free .

The great thing about the truth (i.e What IS ) is that it is ineradicable. It Is WHAT IS .and cannot be erased . All that can be done is to veil it , shuffle it about , turn it around and upside down .

all That can be done and Indeed has been done is to present a glamour ,An illusion , a magicians Distraction and sleight of hand to distract you from it .
IT IS and always will be .Seek and ye shall find ,Truly See and Truly Hear .
That which dies never lived . and that which lives can never die .

I am the same Today yesterday and forever
I Am that I Am.
This day you Shall be with me in heaven.
Accept Christ as your self and as within you .
You are sons of God.

There has been some obfuscation and confusion and sleight of hand . No wonder magic is called a dark art  :)
This Is the end time to and For deception

Choose freely and accept that you are of The Spirit and truly consider the implications of this. You will be surprised at How this will free you , how many sins fade away . How forgiveness will become What is and how many Burdens will Fade away .
The transient Illusion of WHAT IS NOT must pass
The Blind See
The Dead are raised
The "Evil" Spirit is cast away
The lame Walk
The Sickness is healed
And most Importantly: The captive is set free !

What is of the flesh is of the flesh and what is of the spirit is of the spirit . there is no "Sin" that cannot be healed .I believe that it is a coded truth that Jesus chose to say "your sins are forgiven" when healing .

This is my Truth
I share it with you

This is My journey
I share it with you

This is my Gnosis

It is not complete but I am getting there . For at its end We will all be healed. ( I say this with utter conviction !- Healing is not metaphorical )

as above so below . Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven... These my truths . and I hope to make them yours as well in truth as well as in deed .

This is my Journey and as you are with me and have been dear to me . I believe that it has been Our journey . the love that creates and that Is Does not allow for Unnecessary /trivial occurrence . Nothing is That was Not Intended to be .
My perceptions are limited as this incarnation , But the Spirit That IS and that  I AM is not .

I have rambled longer than i expected but i believe no longer than I must.
My language , and the order in which I write is a product of my upbringing and experiences . Look beyond the words to the meaning that is most true to your Language /Order /Concepts . It is all the same road but each soul chose its own road .

Spread and Be : Peace Love Joy and Blessing
Do not do what you hate .
Do not curse at what and where you Are
Your light will be revealed soon and In this Now
only just believe !!
ONLY JUST 'BE- LIVE' :)
-and this too shall pass
I empower you by my faith and spirit and by all that I am in this Now . To touch with your spirit what you have truly sought. See and Be that which is most Desirable in your heart of hearts .


share what parts you wish with those who love you careful not to harm .Do the greater good and lift someones heart to day in whatever way you know how !

ok so...

- It is all within ; then mirrored without

-It is all intent before being .

-Causation is intent, process is symbolic and system based ..Arbitrary.

-To know is to be.

-To doubt is to resist .

-Where you are , who you are and what you are are basically the same question .

-What IS though, cannot be understood piecemeal nor  self comprehend through  the fragments of function and consequence

-Worship no gods and bear no Idols . None "Other" exists

-Do not do what you hate.

-Do not believe in concepts or ideas that espouse limitation.

-Love is a and The natural state within existence . It may  be suppressed or ignored but never created anew. Embrace , accept and express this .

-What you see is not what IS but the symbols within perceptual context.

- You do not learn . You recognise and recall. All Is and is within .

-The true history of the world ,may not /probably is not the history taught to you. Neither is it the History of your Soul.

-Existence is eternal and indestructible, yet you may transcend even this.

-Everything is alive but not everything is en souled .This is the cause for the war and interference

-What I am is tripartite Spirit- Soul- Body

Spirit is Source and is the essence of all MotherfatherBe.

The Soul is the vehicle of subjective experience

The Body contains the matter for experiencing ( my words for my own use :))

-A True soul is androgyn and beyond duality.

-***I /we live in an amnesiac state intentionally induced in earthly existence .

-I/we live in an amnesiac state Intentionally induced in this earthly existence.

-We are enslaved in this Life and in bondage

-That we/some of us, now have an inkling of this does not mean we are free. Knowledge does NOT free .

-Freedom is BEING Free

Symbolically we are manifesting this bondage in what we perceive as mental ,physical and psychological processes . We create a huge data bank of "process " and "science" . This knowledge , Scientific or religious is useful for only one thing , to make you recognise and give legitimacy to  your Bondage . It will never free you .Unless it helps you break out of the system itself . Studying the prison and making it a better prison is useless!

-Everything in this system places shackles on you . Including Mass ,Space and Meaning (i.e  need .)

Where then is the key? How do you free yourself from an endless maze ?

Destroy the sense that any achievement within the maze is REAL. Feel free to break the rules and walk out /climb out and be . Do not do what you hate . Do not do what is inimical to a free spirit. Find yourself and true identity through self knowledge , forgiveness .Self acceptance and understanding . Know that you are Spirit soulfully existing ; eternal, indestructible and without limit. You are a flow of life that will never end

-Each soul has had its own journey,each is distinct  but each share the same 1st event . That is our oneness. Not amorphous homogeneity  but unity of origin . We may not recognise each other right now, but we are of the same Mother/father/Parent.

You Are Creator Eternal

I Am Creator Eternal

I Am Who I AM

and So are you

That which  truly lives Shall never Die ,but That which  dies  never lived

I am the way the truth and the light..

Lift a stone and I am there , Split a piece of wood and I am there ...

Seek and ye shall find....

None comes to the Father except thru ..... get the drift Oh Child Of God!?

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to be continued

musings

Hell. It exists for everyone, Just not the sadistic flame and torture one  (though that exists too for the believer!) But for all a hell exists . Which  is simply the polarity of the principle one has transgressed . The placement of one in a circumstance that one has feared .In the place one has performed an outrage against .

One gets out of an event/experience when one transcends the system under which the circumstance exist Or Comprehends the System underlying the situation .If the system is nullified then one is free of both system and circumstance . It has no more bearing on ones self. No effect . One is free.
Or one can within the system attain comprehension that allows one to change the balance and experience the opposite polarization of the event .

..the process (..of comprehension.) is represented by symbolic/ metaphorical representations of difficulties as are acceptable within the system . For example , Distance Time Space Energy and Or Aesthetics and Pain etc, etc.

Transcendence evades the system entirely , avoids the reward systems symptomatic of the "system" itself. One merely is where THAT is seen as it truly IS . 'All at once' and 'Now'

I am where I Am. But what system am I participating in ? what are its reward systems /its obstacles . see its polarities,  Comprehend & Choose ; Attain or transcend . Play ? or be ?

In comprehension within the system I can consciously attain the heights of the rewards Within the system on its scale of polarity...
But in transcending My relationship to the system is beyond and above , my movements are Mine alone and placement within the system would be "miraculous/magickal. No restrictions , no bondage .

..In totality, All lies within the realm of comprehension . Intimate and complete comprehension eliminates "process"

We have been bred to seek our rewards within the system.... But this conditioning Is easily broken . If one Chooses to . the difficulty lies in the addiction .

(Dedicated to ignorance)

I found my fire and it scares me
thunder pales
the truth is in me
each day I am torn , and each morn born anew

the pain has become the norm

I am knocking ..on heavens door ,
I think...
Is Jesus even his name
Is Yahweh game
I wished to be a mendicant in life
A monk and a monastery
because this life had no meaning to me

It’s all illusion and sleight of hand
the gifts are undeserving .
what was ours was taken ,and what mattered most was turned to dust .
My best Teacher, thinks that I am insane .

But even before i was in darkness spelled
I saw heaven
Felt the pleasure that bespoke pain
I struggle to explain myself because just maybe I am wrong.
So many people look to me for hope
But what if I, am wrong
What if I did not see what I think I saw
What if light is dark and right is wrong.
And my feeble mind in so far  reaching
has broken



the engines of my will are driven solely by fear
At last faith was  betrayed

I was a broken toy
A sentient puppet without a puppeteer

A ghoul full of anguish and pain
totally vain
with friends friendless
unclothed but not naked

feeling so deeply but showing  not at all
what keeps me going is knowing that I have been loved
and that in loving embrace ,observed
the universe

yes my insanity knows no bounds , and my observations are infinite
you are here
because
I am here ,and when I am gone you are not
yes this is a lie that pleasures me
and when its gone I am not,
and without this all I have is not purpose but Doubt


I am the master of my universe
A martyr to my own cause

the serpent in his own garden .I want so much for those I love
I want apparently more than I can give
my alms are beyond my reach

and my reach beyond my arms

I want to be honest with myself
Naked
cant do it though
so many masks are necessary to me being me
I live by sleight of hand
I owe all I am to deceptions
not to be unkind but to be me

forgive me world
samsara

this Is This

"So, realize; you are no more than what you accept yourself to be and will thus experience that in endless cycles."


Each and all journeys hint at this message. It starts out as a haunting call, a knowledge that there is more . More what? What do I lack to be ‘me’? What will answer this call?  What is ‘me’? And why is it not complete and what will it take ...God? Power? Wealth?Distinction?

There is this knowledge from within that there is more to this existence. That if this missing essence is known you will know yourself. You will leave the 99 sheep and search for the One, and in finding it realize what you were lacking, this  essence that completes results from acknowledging the essence of what  actually and truly IS.

In this journey and this search. The biggest obstacle is what you think you know; when in actuality you know nothing. Everything is upside down, and the truth lies down the rabbit hole.

Empty yourself completely and as a child approach each thing with new eyes empty of assumption or pride. Or suffer the abuse of all your conceits being twisted and torn , Find all that you think you are, your very sense of self being torn from you. Ripped apart with savagery.

Seeking that one sheep. That one that you are sure will make you whole will reveal to you who you are. This knowledge will free you and give you peace. In this search and the struggle of the journey you will learn to understand and know and cherish what you truly are and never knew you had.

It’s funny, rich...

This veil on the divine, this great illusion that separates you and has you lost and bewildered.

This great evil, this sin that has left you incomplete. It is  paradoxically the garment you use to cover you nakedness, the blinding glamour you use to hide you shame. This luciferian glow that "gives you back your pride" and offers you the whole world in exchange for your crown and bended knee. Yet the Kingdom is already yours!

Its funny, it’s rich...

That the truth lies closer to you than your own skin. That what you seek has always lain within. It was and is and has always been with you already . In abundance.
Yet with thought and struggle and strife you journey endlessly climbing ambitions towers, scaling the mountains of power.

O proud and noble being.

Cast out of heaven by one simple and singular lie:

That you are not THAT. And in that single, elegant and subtle wushu. A perfectly placed spiritual jiu-jitsu . In your own power you were tricked into believing you were less than Suns of God .Your own powers used against you, The power in motion, that mighty force expended in a single and mighty fall .( the essence of wushu , of war, is deception.)

A fall made greater by even further whispers; "That the mighty never fall!"

So now you seek that which is greater , journeying further and further from that which was your true self . Abdicating your throne and seeking, proving struggling, fighting, building up that great arena that great drama that now lies before you.

It’s truly rich .  The prodigious power expelled creating that magnificence that is all you . Its the greatest story ever told. It’s the great drama. And the entire universe is the stage in which it plays out. The journey back requires the acceptance of your crown. That you are that which you have sought. There must be no doubt, No animosity, No regret, No Sin.

All is forgiven.
All is now Love and laughter  and joyful tears for you  have found the lost sheep. And in finding it see it is a sheep like any other And you had them in abundance.
It truth you own them all!

Reading through it feels like I’m being, glib but that is not my intention.

 I feel this way because of my pride.

I feel this way because the truth hurts, because it shows me up for a fool. And this allows me to get angry and anger would help me resist. Angry enough to turn away. And for a little bit longer hold on to the seductive comfort of the lie that I had thoroughly believed was me. It’s like death. It's frightening, it’s humbling and it is inevitable. Because it is true.

I feel this way because my beliefs and my knowledge unto this point has always demanded difficulty and humiliation. A sacrifice worthy of the "great truths". A barter of pain and little pieces of my soul. I realize how deviously subtle my conditioning and my Illusions have been. And how closely I identify my entire self/being and purpose with them. It’s like working thru a seven year college course on a demanding subject then being told it was all an elaborate hoax or lie. Funny? NOT.

But truth is funny that way. When you stop assuming you know and really see. Stop looking for what comforts you but rather what stuns you. Do not be afraid of being stripped naked. The truth hurts because for so long our most intimate love has been a lie. Pride does not like this one bit. Everything you know yourself to be has been wool pulled over your eyes. The emperor is naked and that cannot, must not, be .So we all of us live a lie. Alone out in the cold and die of consumption.

Don’t hide yourself from yourself. Bare your heart, your soul your very being. Really seek. Really be in that bridal chamber and be reunited with that which is most intimately you.

There are no blemishes, No sin, No recriminations in that complete and utter acceptance that is the true love and is your true identity .

Cherish your life
This expression that is you
Cherish what you have seen and have been
cherish the times that changed at your whim
the seasons as they march past 
cherish this holy communion with creation and creator
cherish the spirit that moves you
and is you
Nothing is accidental
and nothing is hidden unless you mean to seek it
Cherish this now and do not worry
For all that is is cherishing you

No pilgrimage  is needed
no master or sage
No Guru
there is no thing hidden in this montage
its all equally here and present
as soon as you Stop
Be here and be still
cease being the forment of your own storms
Cease being the most valiant of your advaersaries
why hoard when the bounty is infinite
Let it all flow
walk light and easy
be as happy as you want to be
be  the river that flows
dont damn yourself with stale waters
and let go of all else
be naked and pure

my dream

In dreams of time and space
I found me .
In dreams of strife and struggle I fought me
In dreams of light and dark I saw me
In journeys long and hard  I sought me
In songs of joy and pain I heard me
when love is bold I know me
And beyond here and there , I am
still dreaming this dream that is me