this Is This

"So, realize; you are no more than what you accept yourself to be and will thus experience that in endless cycles."


Each and all journeys hint at this message. It starts out as a haunting call, a knowledge that there is more . More what? What do I lack to be ‘me’? What will answer this call?  What is ‘me’? And why is it not complete and what will it take ...God? Power? Wealth?Distinction?

There is this knowledge from within that there is more to this existence. That if this missing essence is known you will know yourself. You will leave the 99 sheep and search for the One, and in finding it realize what you were lacking, this  essence that completes results from acknowledging the essence of what  actually and truly IS.

In this journey and this search. The biggest obstacle is what you think you know; when in actuality you know nothing. Everything is upside down, and the truth lies down the rabbit hole.

Empty yourself completely and as a child approach each thing with new eyes empty of assumption or pride. Or suffer the abuse of all your conceits being twisted and torn , Find all that you think you are, your very sense of self being torn from you. Ripped apart with savagery.

Seeking that one sheep. That one that you are sure will make you whole will reveal to you who you are. This knowledge will free you and give you peace. In this search and the struggle of the journey you will learn to understand and know and cherish what you truly are and never knew you had.

It’s funny, rich...

This veil on the divine, this great illusion that separates you and has you lost and bewildered.

This great evil, this sin that has left you incomplete. It is  paradoxically the garment you use to cover you nakedness, the blinding glamour you use to hide you shame. This luciferian glow that "gives you back your pride" and offers you the whole world in exchange for your crown and bended knee. Yet the Kingdom is already yours!

Its funny, it’s rich...

That the truth lies closer to you than your own skin. That what you seek has always lain within. It was and is and has always been with you already . In abundance.
Yet with thought and struggle and strife you journey endlessly climbing ambitions towers, scaling the mountains of power.

O proud and noble being.

Cast out of heaven by one simple and singular lie:

That you are not THAT. And in that single, elegant and subtle wushu. A perfectly placed spiritual jiu-jitsu . In your own power you were tricked into believing you were less than Suns of God .Your own powers used against you, The power in motion, that mighty force expended in a single and mighty fall .( the essence of wushu , of war, is deception.)

A fall made greater by even further whispers; "That the mighty never fall!"

So now you seek that which is greater , journeying further and further from that which was your true self . Abdicating your throne and seeking, proving struggling, fighting, building up that great arena that great drama that now lies before you.

It’s truly rich .  The prodigious power expelled creating that magnificence that is all you . Its the greatest story ever told. It’s the great drama. And the entire universe is the stage in which it plays out. The journey back requires the acceptance of your crown. That you are that which you have sought. There must be no doubt, No animosity, No regret, No Sin.

All is forgiven.
All is now Love and laughter  and joyful tears for you  have found the lost sheep. And in finding it see it is a sheep like any other And you had them in abundance.
It truth you own them all!

Reading through it feels like I’m being, glib but that is not my intention.

 I feel this way because of my pride.

I feel this way because the truth hurts, because it shows me up for a fool. And this allows me to get angry and anger would help me resist. Angry enough to turn away. And for a little bit longer hold on to the seductive comfort of the lie that I had thoroughly believed was me. It’s like death. It's frightening, it’s humbling and it is inevitable. Because it is true.

I feel this way because my beliefs and my knowledge unto this point has always demanded difficulty and humiliation. A sacrifice worthy of the "great truths". A barter of pain and little pieces of my soul. I realize how deviously subtle my conditioning and my Illusions have been. And how closely I identify my entire self/being and purpose with them. It’s like working thru a seven year college course on a demanding subject then being told it was all an elaborate hoax or lie. Funny? NOT.

But truth is funny that way. When you stop assuming you know and really see. Stop looking for what comforts you but rather what stuns you. Do not be afraid of being stripped naked. The truth hurts because for so long our most intimate love has been a lie. Pride does not like this one bit. Everything you know yourself to be has been wool pulled over your eyes. The emperor is naked and that cannot, must not, be .So we all of us live a lie. Alone out in the cold and die of consumption.

Don’t hide yourself from yourself. Bare your heart, your soul your very being. Really seek. Really be in that bridal chamber and be reunited with that which is most intimately you.

There are no blemishes, No sin, No recriminations in that complete and utter acceptance that is the true love and is your true identity .