If you read this, don't judge- just read.

It only takes me three word into every verse to realize I am wrong.
 It only takes me the time to post :"Epiphanous bliss", to let me know that I am talking shit.
What I know and feel in the moment  is passing ,Is quick and immediate but feels everlasting.
What we experience as everlasting and divine can never be grasped, or held on to. For that is against its nature,that is 'not' what it is.

Whatever you think you know, was the last sighting of Elvis. Jesus in a pancake...
To be with the divine is to be ever present. To seek, then move beyond seeking and live expectantly(a grand adventure indeed!) and then to move beyond expectation and perceive continually ( continually divining maybe?)

Be in full knowledge ,expectant and seeking that which lies beyond the veil that is you.
This is the true fabric of the 'real'. There is No final attainment so 'let go' .
There is a need within us all to compensate for our perceived  failing / healing / disease / "achieve" through phantasms of imagination and illusion .
The satisfactions of these are minor truths -mere pit stops in a great journey.
 And like sweet candy they are the least of what you  need.

The reality of every day life, accepted without prejudice, without expectation other than excitement, curiosity and passion, Is True.
 Your imagination unfettered by want, inadequacy or compensation is True.

You are always true.

If you can be here and in the moment with awareness( aware of your egos tempestuous and joyous outings,) Accepting and integrating each moment, biological, electrical and cognitive;  without embellishment.
 Just be here
 You do not need,Hope'(which is toxic) you need 'Faith' a much more cleaner fuel,whose true source is better acknowledged as Love/trust. but better still is to accept with awareness and a stubborn love and joy that disregards difficulty. imbuing a positive outcome .

That you are here is reason enough to begin your appreciation of what IS and its relation ship with you


You speaks in many tongue, it expresses itself in tongues of culture, language ,desire, touch, memory and curiosity ,sex, emotion, confusion, religion, wonder, science, abuse, trauma, laughter, joy, reward, perception, dimension, relationships, epiphany and etc,etc.... 

your true self speaks through the artifact we call living . everything you experience is symbolic of your true self.
and everything that feels stunted and repressed and ill at ease, will cry out for attention and healing and convalescence. Just as loud as your laughter is your pain.

 PAY ATTENTION to yourself. Loving your self means healing your world. Your pain can no longer be ignored.
The causes of your pain demand attention 
 until you stop and take care of what ails you, you will live a limited and damaged life, and the true joys will be half of what they could be..have you ever tried to enjoy a sunset with a tummy ache ?
let go.
send the ego child away for a minute and let the adult universe speak to you

you totally belong in the life you live. make it better,